Stream of Consciousness July 13, 2008

I like photography. I think it is a beautiful artform and so much can be done with it. There is nothing like looking back on old photographs and remembering past events, friends, achievements, vacations, etc. I am going to by a new camera with some of the money I have saved up from working this past year and I am going to take up photography as a new hobby in college. So now maybe my blogs with be more interesting. (Actually, it is just a pain in the neck to put pictures on this silly blog…so I will have to figure that out a better way to do that, first…any advice?)

Rainy days are fun. As long as you don’t have to do anything. It is very calming and relaxing, great for reading, writing, and sleeping. The earth just looks alive afterward especially when the sun comes out and all of the colors are so vibrant. I am glad God is creative.

“Our God is an Awesome God” is a great song. A lot of church music talks about us. Not that it isn’t fitting that we are thankful that we are saved and such, but this song is different. It is just singing about who He is and why it is that we are deeming Him awesome. To God be the glory. That is another song, isn’t it.

We have lost the true meanings of many words and use them incorrectly too much. Take “awesome,” for example. Awesome-  inspiring awe. Awe-an overwhelming feeling of reverence, admiration, fear, etc., produced by that which is grand, sublime, extremely powerful, or the like. So, what are we calling awesome? Does it really deserve that word? There are many other words like this. What other words can you think of?

My family is fun. We are a very loving, affectionate, and silly; we are intelligent, kind, and lighthearted. We always joke around on eachother and we know its all in good fun. Mom and I always sing in the car together, have been known to have impromtu “radio shows,” and have very good heart to heart talks. It is always exciting going on Krystals and Freds “dates” with Dad. Nicholas and I are always cracking up with each other when he is home and yes, I go on dates with him too. Good memories.

As I am growing older I am becoming more and more comfortable with myself. Now, this in no way means there is not room for improvement, because, believe you me, there is. I mean this in the way of I have really had self esteem problems and it has really worked against me. I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Inside and out. Yes, there is maintenance, but that is no reason for it to get in the way of who I am to be. I used to not wear shorts very much because I hated my legs. Now…either I have better legs, or I just don’t care and wear shorts anyway. Silly example, I know, but I am who I am. There is no reason to let petty little things weigh so heavily.

Ok, I am going to wrap this up. It seems I am doing a lot of wrapping up lately. Wrapping up the first chapter of my life. Wrapping up old friendships and entering into the “Oh we’ll totally hang out over Christmas break” phase. Wrapping up dependence and on to the semi-independence.

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